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    Well, I'm back to classes. It's been a long time and it feels weird to be back at school. I'm feeling a little overwhelmed again. I always do this to myself. I hate to go to school and work full time. It's a lot for my poor attention span to handle.
    I wake up between 3 and 4 AM most mornings for work and then go to class at night. By the time I get home from work I'm too tired to do anything but sleep. So I take a nap until it's time to leave for class. Then I trudge my way to my car and drive the half hour to campus (killing my wallet on gas). I get here and immediately think that I just want to go home. I know I need to finish these classes to get my degree, but I really wish I didn't have to.
    On top of all that I injured my shoulder pretty badly. It's nerve damage so there really isn't much for me to do about it. I ice it which is really only numbing as much of it as I can, but that only helps for a while. My doctor put me on some meds that were really helping my shoulder, but they were causing some other serious side effects. I was having nightmares every night, barely sleeping otherwise, and my depression was worsening. I spent a good hour texting my best friend about all of the bad things and she was able to keep me calm and get my head on straight. So now I'm off of those meds and my shoulder is worse than ever. It hurts to put any pressure on it. Which is pretty much every second of the day.
    Ok, so I know I'm just ranting, but I just feel like I need to talk to someone. Not that anyone even reads this. I would say I don't care, but I do.
    I'm in the middle of a job search right now. I've put out 15+ applications and just got my first call back. I really hope something works out because I can barely stand my job as it is. The management is terrible and I dread going to work every day. I'm exhausted just from being angry. I know that sounds kind of stupid, but I think I spend up so much of my energy being mad that I just don't have any left for anything else.
    I'm also hoping to be moving soon. I'm not really sure when that is going to happen, or even if it is going to happen this year. I don't want to doubt, but it's always there whispering in the back of my mind, telling me that I should listen. I already have a third of my books packed, which is a really big deal for me. I hate to put books in boxes. I don't like them packed away where I can't get to them. I was so confident that moving was going to happen soon. Sadly things are getting in the way of that.
    I'm getting lonely at work. Almost all of my friends have left and the people that remain at the store are either people I despise or people I can tolerate (only a handful are actually my friends aside from these two categories).

Ok, I think I'm done with this rant. Not that anyone is going to read it.
  • Listening to: the insesant chatter of students
  • Reading: Spares
  • Watching: Chopped
  • Playing: Can I take a nap now?
  • Eating: granola bar
  • Drinking: water


Artist | Student | Photography
United States
Current Residence: Nebraska
Favourite genre of music: anything that moves me
Favourite style of art: Photography
Operating System: Mac OSX
MP3 player of choice: My new iPod Touch
Shell of choice: sea shells....
Wallpaper of choice: I'll stick with paint thanks...
Skin of choice: Mine...
Favourite cartoon character: Ducky (Slinkers)

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EintoeRn Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Missing you around ! Hope that you are fine :wave:
AlwaysConfused89 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2016  Student Photographer
I pretty much broke away from art because of work. I really don't have a life outside of that anymore. It kind of sucks but hopefully I will be making a career change soon.
EintoeRn Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
These seems to be a common issue ... I hope that you find time and interest for the art again in a while. Take care !
scheinbar Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:iconflyravenplz: thanks so much :iconflyravenplz:
EintoeRn Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer

So many thanks for that wonderful :+fav:ing frenzy, dear Jennifer :hug:
AlwaysConfused89 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2015  Student Photographer
You are very welcome! :hug:
scheinbar Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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AlwaysConfused89 Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2015  Student Photographer
You are very welcome!
MarcoHeisler Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014   Photographer
Thank you very much for the support! :thanks:
AlwaysConfused89 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Student Photographer
You are very welcome!
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